it's been 9 months since you passed away

A year without you is almost too much to bear.". I am having a horrible time with not having him and I do not know if I will ever be free of my horrible grief. In the poignant track's lyrics, G-Eazy describes longing to reunite with someone in his dreams . I get it! The grief process has been awful but I am working with it. I fight to have a normal life for my daughter. Doo sorry for your loss x I lost my husband of 47 years 6 months ago and Im.sooo lost ..I cry all the time I dont eat or sleep he was my soul mate how does life go on, I lost my husband of 44 years dec 29, 2020 I am at a loss for life, he was 76 and I am 65 ,,, I pretty much took care of him for the last few years poor guy so so sad he was hating his disabilities so much pain he didnt really want anyone around and when we were alone he would get in a stressed out mood and yell how he hated life and wanted god to take him then cry and do it all over again and again for a very long time, I loved him more than life itself,,,, I have losses in my life my sibling,mother and father,,, I am exhausted now my husband I am so lost with my life and so sad. 3. So hard having had to move. But I miss my husband every day and feel Im in an impossible situation. Since then, I have no clue or direction with what to do with my life. My children and 3 grandchildren miss him terribly and I try not to cry in front of them. Thank God for His presents in my life along with my Two Dogs that my husband loved so much. It will be three years in three months that I lost my husband. (Still not sure how I managed to give birth to 4 children!). His wife passed away 20 years ago and he was left to raise 2 small boys. "Life is eternal, and love is immortal, and death is only a horizon; and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sigh" - Rossiter Worthington . I cant afford to say in house but can afford 1k a month either. My brother died 14 months ago, he was only 23 and it was the biggest shock of our lives. Ive been going to a grief counselor and its helped a lot but this feels like something I havent experienced yet. I miss him every second of every day, i still cant believe it. But there is no clock on grief and it is such an important message to get across. They came to everything I was involved in from adolescence into adulthood. Sometimes he can't sleep at night and stay wide awake at 4am thinking about her. I keep busy and that helps but I only have to look at his photo and that starts me off! Many days its a struggle to just get out of bed. I never imagined I would grieve so hard. I feel like time has stopped as I am in a complete never ending story of several emotions at one time. I try to act normal and sometimes its really hard. It was an honor to be there for her and care for her, but those memories of the last six months are so strong. For a long time, fear of dropping the ball was governing my life. Im sorry. Its the awful realization that she is really gone and will never return and be a part of my life again. I do believe in the resurrection and have faith that we will meet again. My God what if I do get into those 80s? Why do people with live child get to talk about them so freely and Im supposed to not talk about my son. I had no idea how intense caregiving was until I went through it. Glad I happened onto this website where I can share such deep feelings that I used to share with the love of my life. No matter how my day is going, Im constantly knocked off guard with just one person, me, doing things that we used to do and not two. That loss, and pain will ease, and of course we break down and cry. I was her care taker 24/7, she was also my best friend and constant companion. He did this June 2017 so all 1st have passed but now is the hardest part for me. Im trying. You are not depressed and forget the damn therapy! Not so. And his angles are looking over you. I never got a chance to grieve for my dog and now I was faced to grieve the both of them alone. Not everyone is like that just some of us. And every day I think about her. I am a musician I play guitar a song that I came across hit me like bricks its called, Something You Get Though by Willie Nelson look it up. Icantgo through another holiday without my family. The next year was so hard. Well see how the third year is. "Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow" - Unknown. Im going into my 2nd year of the loss of my son August 5, w2017.. he was murdered at the age of 23. I will spend it alone. But I have three grown Kids. Grief is a roller coaster ride that when you get off your left feeling dizzy and everything is. Honey I dont want to do this anymore. Thank God, we have 4 children and 10 grandchildren. I want to stop feeling sadI am a practical person who understands all people die, the world keeps spinning. I find this second year a lot worse than the first. And it still hurts. No he said and as he sat on the chair with his head on my chest and me rubbing his back he looked up at me and said well maybe it is my heart and took his last breath. I could care less. This was without doubt the hardest thing Ive ever done. Someone here on this site suggested stepping out and focusing on others in need of helpI think that could be wise. Somehow it feels like its hurting more as time passes few people really understand. I am trying to give something beautiful from him. The last two year was hell on her. I just survive praying to God that one day we will be united. We have to keep going & move forward & grieve whenever we feel like it. We married at age 19. I was totally blank, dont know what to think nor what I feel, totally felt nothing. Just watching and being involved with the babies sometimes makes me very sad, since gran isnt with me. I cant remember last Thanksgiving or Christmas but I made it. Its 2 and a half years now but I still feel I cant live a normal life . The pain is immense, there is no recipe or road map for this and most of no quick fix. The thought of living 20-30yrs without them is so very hard, I know exactly what u mean theres that one love and no body & I mean no body will ever take his place Ill never love again the way I loved him 35 years I was w this man & his gone Im still in a river of tears every oldie comes on the water starts to over flow I dont believe it gets easier I loved him my heart continues to hurt..nothing helps. But I miss my husband so much- its so hard ach and every day to continue on. It is now year two and in some ways hurt worse than the first when I was in shock. My family is great but they are grieving also. I just cant see me with anyone else. 26 Likes, TikTok video from Chantra Keobunta (@chantrakkeobunta): "It's been a little over 2 months since my Mom passed away. But the pain is almost over bearing. They call that your new normal. Most of the time things are ok but every now and then Ill have a day thats just a throwback to the original date. I am still hoping beyond hope and beyond reality, that Jill will magically be real again, here, in the whole, in my arms, and next to me in bed at night and in the morning. & loving companion passed 18 months ago. Hang in there. I lost my parents, & two sisters and the pain could not compare with this. I wish I could believe it is going to be ok but I dont feel that way. They only thing was he was not responding to any stimuli, he just so happened to have a little brain damage in the best place possible, but after a week, we decided to let him go, the neurologist gave us no possible hope and his numbers were not getting better. As I reflect on the past five years, I've remembered some things and forgotten others; I've grown; I've surprised myself in a lot of ways. My husband died in Feb 18 after 3 years struggle with multiple system atrophy. She passed away August 2020 . It still hurts and i wish it didnt. Im beyond lost. He lived with leukaemia for 7 years and it was being managed and seemed to be doing well. My husband has been gone since April 2018. Excessively avoiding reminders or good memories . " People often say that time heals all wounds. My heart physically hurt so badly, that I prayed I would diethen and there. Went to grief group, it helped a little, but like you at the end of the day your still alone. It left me very melancholy. And worked she was sick of hospitals. I will always keep part of him with me. I pray everyday for the lord to take me. I cry everyday for my friend .. we were kindred spirits .. theres a song called One more day by Diamond Rio .. pretty much sums up how Im feeling .. good luck to you x. Lorettajust. I cry everyday and into the night, have no interest or desire to engage with other people, and I miss him so I still have Sophie, another king charles. I sat today looking through the plethora of pictures of her and I'm just so happy I had what little time I did with her. Time Flies Quotes. (She just wasnt there no more. Read as much as you can and talk an listen as much as you can and find the way through this. Checked in with my little nephew to see how he's been holding uphe told me that he wish he had more time with her. Cant get interested in anything that I used to love! Its little victories like that will shepherd you into what WILL be a happy future. I lost my soulmate 23 months ago and am surprised at the intensity of my sorrow. He was my first father daughter dance, he was in the room when I was born, I lived with him and my mom for the first four years of my life. I left the house for about 15 minutes and came home and found him dead on the kitchen floor. We were short 5 people for holiday dinner in one year. Not sure how to deal with this anymore. I am very bitter Had a letter from Hospital admitting neglect but I havnt got my Husband the love of my life, I am struggling to get on with my life but its so hard as it is for everyone on this forum, We no longer live we exist, Pam xx. I was thirteen, now I'm fourteen. I have wonderful family and I started going back to church after he died. The lord said it was not my time. I believe the first year I was numb. On top of it all, the flashbacks of seeing him in the pool came often and took me to my knees every time. 22 years together. And No, I'll Never 'Get Over' It. It helps me to know that although I feel alone, I am not alone in my emotions. I gave up everything of my old life when I came home and I dont regret a minute of it but now I feel so lost. All My family lives out of town. Im dying inside. I Lost my husband. from everybody else. So numb. I just felt he was near. I lost my mother (and I was her caregiver) in early 2017 (basically congenital heart failure, but she fail on what I consider a good day for her and never recovered and passed away the next day). We have 4 daughters 24,21 and twin 15 year olds. This is my first time reading all the posts. It is not as bad as the first year but i still have more sad days than happy. Nothing has ever hurt so much and felt so hopeless. God Bless, I understand where youre coming from Sharon. I work, i come home and I go to bed and get up and do it all over. That is strangely comforting to remember that. As time moves further into the future, I find my grief is actually getting worse! Why is God so cruel? I lost my husband on 17th December 2016. He came into my life defending me from a bully. How did any of you get up and do something for yourselves? I function. I know Dan will offer a prayer for all our lost loved ones. Megan truly gets it. We just put one foot in front of the other, dont we? Passed from pancreatic cancer. I feel like you do after my husband was murdered a year ago and then my beloved dog died. Its too hard to live without them. Right now, this moment, put away the baggage from the past, shake yourself free from the fear of the future unknown. Never to forget the wonderful years that you shared. I hope you are living well in the world of the creator. Im a forty six year old widow and had been with my husband eight years. I got a small wave around what would have been our wedding anniversary, but they keep coming as Thanksgiving gets nearer, and theyre a little more frequent, and severe. He told me, thats how you cope with grief, you need to talk about it over & over until finally you stop. The what its are going to kill me. But, as Kevorkian explains, you will begin to heal over time, which will make your grief more bearable. They have kept me going. I lost my Im alone for everything, no friends, no family, just me and my little babies. It doesn't heal them, but it gives us the opportunity to learn from them. Caregiver for close to 8 years. Come home, turn on the lights, walk through an empty house, empty life. I lost my sister 19 months ago and I find myself thinking okquick remember as much as you can so you dont forgetits the acorns. I said no, Im still married. I have trips planned, do volunteer work, try to be active in my church, but I realize the hole in my heart will never heal. The meltdown has not yet come. I work , but hate my job.I try to find a sense of normality. I dont want medication. I also am only 2 months in after the loss of my husband ..21 years of marriage and 5 children the latter of which keep me going ..he lives in them. Just keep pushing onward and live while you are still able to. I feel very teary of late and missing him so. I want you to know that I feel alone without you. I do have some hope to give you. The good news is you're the pilot." -". Then in October of 2019 I got a call at work again to come to the hospital and that Kimberly suddenly died of a heart massive heart attack at 54.I couldnt believe it was real and sure enough here I was again, this time I had no way of telling her see you again someday because my brain told me that saying goodbye to Lisa werent the right words. Its been a year. To survive is just being alive- I am not living. I am beyond broken and I am into the second year and it is so much worse than the first for all the reasons mentioned by the write of this article and all the things you say are true, Hi my friend . You are a child of the universe and have been left here for a reason. From the day we met until the day she died was 7 days less than a year. Ill never date or love anyone else, and when I do interact with others, I pretend to be happy, and paint on a smile and fake cheer, because thats what they expect; yet all the while, im Dying inside. Dont worry, I would not hurt my son or my kitties by hurting myself. After the loss of a family pet, many people wonder how long they should wait before they get a new cat or dog. Thats hard at 69 . Life is fleeting, indeed. I am beyond guilty because I was the one to ask him to get the shot and it was because of me that he had been so weakened by that rare disease. this is life what we deal with as best we can. The lord has a better plan for me. Like many of you this year has been worse than last year. I cry when no one is home. Its definitely tough every year and Im on year 4. He left behind a 5 year old boy. I have just been reading through this site and found your response to minelike you..I dont want to socialise..I go to work..come home to the whirlpool of love from my two puppies..you and I are so blessed to have our furriesI know I will never have another soul mate and am so thankful to have been so loved and accepted for who I am ..may our boys rest in peace until we are together again..hope you have settled into your job.work will help keep us both going..hugs..ann. But there was a need to accept at a deeper level, and it was very very hard. I have done some traveling and there have been some good times but the memories always come back. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. Couple of months of disbelief and struggle. What signs did I miss that I should have picked up on? Hi, Ive only just come across this page after searching, Is it normal to still feel so much grief, 18 months into a loss of a loved one. Scars are a testament that I can love deeply and live deeply and be cut, or even gouged, and that I can heal and continue to live and continue to love. you are so right. He Was Grieving Over The Death Of His Best Friend. Do not look for it, you already have it. My children where absolutely beside themselves. If you're a painter, sculptor, or woodworker, create something each year. I too had the months of legal stuff and find things he used to do and now my responsibility rather hard. I am 50 years old, he passed at the age of 53. I miss him as much today as I ever gave. I went online and read countless stories from others. But, by the end of the year, I felt like I survived. Village so he could relax and we would enjoy our golden years, but I am thankful I had as many years as I did with him as my best friend. We were together for 27yrs married 19 yrs. I remember the meltdown in my life, Christmas day.realizing that I would never have another Christmas life my previous 20 years, I cried so hard, I didnt think I could have any tears leftbut they just kept coming. June 24th will be 2 yrs sine my husband died. is worse the waves of gut wrenching Guided meditation is so co forging and helpful to me! They would want us to go on!! All they bring is grief. There is no words that will make sense of our loss. Xmas . It will be two years this month. Margaret, your husband died after 46 years of marriage last year and mine round the same time after 45 years. But now 18 mths on its too much to bear, I wake up crying from such real dreams. These powerful first-person stories explore . I lost my husband of 19 years to cancer in 2003. Holly. I just so miss him by my side and our endless hours of talks. Ive hardened, refusing to be let hurt again. My name is Dustin. Holly, I cant breathe sometimes. Grieving the loss of a parent is personal. How can they possibly think that way? You see as more time passes, the enormity of the loss is more amplified. , I feel just as you do why leave me here my mother was my best friend my ladybug my diva I wake up everyday in so much pain it physically hurts Im scared of everything Im all alone it hurts like shit I cant even begin to explain. It doesnt feel any better or easier. Its been twenty months and it breaks my heart. I truly admire your honesty. So when he got sick I was always there for him. We had plans to move to a Sr. He did have some medical issues but he pulled through all of them and then suddenly passed.

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